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"Screw all the masses, their labels and fables
Sew up the hole, it spews only lies."




























  Prodigal Poet

The rag-like figure from his soapbox speaks
"What has happened to me?"
Lost and broken, the only thing spoken
"My eyes cannot open, can anybody help me?"
The prodigal poet, self-inflicted starvation
"Alone as can be."
Fuck the whole world and now leave it alone
"And with time you will see,"

Tell me what happened, to you and all the people that I loved
"I can’t remember"

Tell me what happened, I do not know, it must have been the drugs
"I don’t remember"

The tiny little man, now parts from his shadow
And reaches his arms up toward the sky
Cold and afraid yet the pain now it fades
"I once was afraid, but now close to alive."
The prodigal poet, self-inflicted starvation
"Don’t let my soul die."
Screw all the masses, their labels and fables
"Sew up the hole, it spews only lies."

Tell me what happened, to you and all the people that I loved
"I can’t remember"
Tell me what happened, I do not know, it must have been the drugs
"I don’t remember"

And I, I have fallen from the earth
I cannot hold on to these memories
Can not find another, reason to live
And I, I still wonder, from time to time
Do you think about me still?
Do you wonder how I feel?
Do you wonder what I would have done for you? Do you?

Come on, don’t you remember, God, it was so long ago
And I don’t understand why I didn’t say this before
Come on, I still remember, that day so long ago, the one
I should have said and now I wish that I did
I’m sorry, so sorry for what I did to you.

The rag-like figure from his soapbox speaks
"You watched and stood idly by."
Lost and broken the only thing spoken
"I’ve hurt so much, to you I confide"
Our unsung hero stumbles to his feet
And wipes the tears to the side
All of this time hidden in his sacred little place
He finally finds the strength to open his eyes

And I, I can’t feel you anymore
And the love that I still feel inside
Has left me, all alone
And I, I still wander through the night
Not knowing where I will go
Or what I wish could be the world
Will ever be, I leave it up to you!

And so I leave it up to you!

 

The Last Time

The first time that I saw her, her eyes were lost in the dark
The first time that I saw her, she lodged herself in my heart
But now that she has gone away and left me alone in the night
I feel my soul slipping away, waiting here to die... Die

Remember the day that she left my life, tears ran from my eyes
I remember the day that she said goodbye, leaving me to this life
Now that she has gone away, the pain inside never ends
I find myself falling away, I’m waiting for the end... End

And this is the last time
True love, true love

The last time that I saw her, her eyes were lost in my heart
The last time that I saw her, she hid her lies in the dark
And now that she has gone away, and left me alone with your night
I find myself pulling away, I’m waiting her to die.... Die

‘Cause I can’t find, what I need
And
You can’t decide, from which pain I bleed
And
I can’t confide, ‘cause you’re all I need
And
You can’t deny, the pain inside
The pain inside, The pain inside
I’m slowly beginning to lose my mind

Don’t you remember? What was it you said? Oh so long ago.
Don’t you remember the love?
I remember the love

NEVER GO

Time, They say time will make you strong
And that the things that you lose will come back to you.
I, I never tried to play your game
Simply watched you from the side, as you slowly destroy my life
Friends, willing to fuck you while you die
Scheming their petty deceit and telling you lies
You, by God you waved as you said goodbye
Left me standing here all alone, with these tears in my eyes

I, I have found way to kill the pain
The pain inside, it’s in my veins
It makes me feel whole again
I need it to breath to live to hate
And it won’t ever go away
Just go away

By now, you know I should have learned
That everything that you love will go away from you
Life, such an innocent little game
Yet the things that we do make it hurt this way
Well, fine, I’ll just take what I learned and
Use it for the next time that the world gives out on me

I, I have found a way to kill the pain
The pain inside, corrodes my veins
It makes me feel close to death again
I need it to live for one more day
I just keeps on going away
Please don’t take it away

 

  Devil’s Liar

Cigarette burns between index and thumb
Eyes black and hair like fire
Blood dripping from nails black
A dark heart full of desire
Cold white skin and a subtle stare
Hateful thoughts like a screaming choir
Matted dirt in his long black hair
All his life as the devil’s liar

No one wanted him and no one cared
So now he’s back with only death to share

He never wanted what he now shares
No one said life would be fair
Raging pain kept inside
He always thought that his soul had died
Fool of the devil’s disgrace
He never really felt in place
Now it ends just as it never began
He’ll wake from his sleep soon to do it again

No one wanted him and no one cared
So now he’s back with only death to share
Once full of life with a soul full of fear
An entire life seen in just one tear

Cigarette burns between index and thumb
Eyes black and hair on fire
Blood dripping from nails black
A dark heart full of desire
Cold white skin and a subtle stare
Hateful thoughts like a screaming choir
Matted dirt in his long black hair
All his life as the devil’s liar

No one wanted him and no one cared
So now he’s back with only death to share
Never had a heart, never had a soul
The devil took it from the day he was born
And now it ends, his fate is near
He takes all of his fear
Why do you want to hurt me
Why do they want to hurt me






 Laura's World

Laura
It’s just a little pinprick

She runs wild and free, Not a care in her mind
Running through the unforgiving streets, Of the crystal world of time
Careful not to break the glass, In fear that her world will shatter
Heroin in her blood, Tracks up her arms
Free as a bird, yet trapped in the cage of what she once was.

Laura’s world is free
Laura’s world is dead
Laura can’t clearly see
The grave that lies ahead

Box of chocolates rose candy sweet, Mind fixated on what she’ll never be
Swinging her head in joyful bliss, With needles digging in through her fists
One more night of cheating herself, One more life put on the shelf
She needs the hit, She needs the fix
(It’s just a little pinprick)
Want, she wants what she can never have

Laura’s world has lost its luster
Laura’s world has fallen down
Laura can’t clearly see
As her head hits the ground

Laura
Trapped by what she used to be, The grave ahead she can not see
The fix is the only unlocking key, To the crystal world of shattered glass
Lost in words and found in death, Laura wants what she could have kept

Laura
It’s just a little pinprick
The pain will go away
Laura
Laura wants what she can never have
Laura
It’s just a little pinprick
The pain will go away

Trapped by what she used to be, The grave ahead she can not see
The fix is the only unlocking key, To the crystal world of shattered glass
Lost in words and found in death, Laura wants what she could have kept
Laura

 

The Machine

Strip down my soul
Leave it here behind
And rip out my eyes
I’m running out of time

And take the veins from my heart
The love I feel is blind
I knew it was you from the start
Inside I have to find

And feel this pain, I know that it hurts too much
Feel my heart, and its ice-cold touch
And crushing the nerves inside my skull
Running the labyrinth in my mind
And with it the pain turns so dull
The hating machine starts to grind

Bury me deep inside the sky
All of my thoughts are so far behind
Holding me tight inside my blood
Crawling my way to another white line

Forgive me father, for I have sinned
My crimes against humanity, I can never forgive
To hurt so many, yet love so much
I deserve to die, I want to die
But the machine won’t let me

And bury me deep inside the sky
All of my thoughts are so far behind I cant even see
Holding me tight inside my blood
Crawling my way to another line
Take the veins from my heart
The love I feel is blinding me, I can’t see the light
I knew it was you from the start
Inside, I have to find myself

I found myself inside this machine
How could they forget me?
What is it doing to me?
I found my way, inside your Machine
How could you have left me?
What will it do to me?
MACHINE

 

FALL AWAY

I fell away, took everything, and left you love.
I’ve run away, I don’t look back, might choose to stay.
I can’t decide, about what you did, or if you were right.
I won’t confide, the corruption of my soul turned black over time.

Yeah

I have taken away, everything that meant anything to you.
I have fought away, fought away the darkness that follows you.
You can’t wish away all the pain I hide inside.
You, you can’t have all the things I hide inside.

Yeah

You don’t know the tears I’ve cried,
Can’t feel the time gone by,
Believing your own lies,
Did you think that I would wait here?
Burning for you,
Longing for you,
I would have died for you.

I have fallen away, I took everything and left you love.
I keep running away, I can’t look back, I know I’ll stay.
I now can’t decide, about what we did, and if we were right.
I, I won’t confide, this evil in my mind, driving me insane.

Sing it! Puppet! Poet! Scream it!

You don’t know the tears I’ve cried,
Can’t feel the time gone by,
Believing your own lies.
Did you think that I would ever forget you?

Fall Away

Burning and turning

Fall away from me

 

Alone In Shadows

He sits alone
So alone, watching
Watching the shadows, play his heart
Sometimes he dreams, of the life that he used to lead
But now it’s all gone, faded away...

Remember her, the time we spent together
Never thought she’d leave
I can not breathe, can not live without her

Sometimes he dreams that she hasn’t gone away
He looks to her to satisfy the emptiness and pain
And sometimes he speaks, pray she answer him back
But the only thing he hears is the pounding in his head

Serve out my sentence, forget what they say
Surrounded by shadows that won’t go away
Forever and ever and ever, my love
Forever and ever, he pushes the world away

Gave all I was to a demon of Love
Gave all I was a demon called Love
I can not hear
I can not see
I can’t even breathe

For it was right here that the world turned to dust
In this room and on this floor he gave up all he was
He fights back the memory and pushes it to the side
Get through one more night, the purpose of his life

He knows that somehow she can still feel his tears
Surrounded by shadows, engulfed in his fear
Forever and ever and ever, my love
Forever and ever, he pushes the world away

Remember her, the time we spent together
Never thought she’d leave
I can not breathe, I can not live without her